This wave of despair started on Friday, December 1.  Today is December 31 and I have tried everything I know to alleviate the darkness.  I’ll dig out a few feet and then sink  deeper.  I’m pushing through my third wave of suicidal and self-harm thoughts and plans.  So alone.  So scared.  No one to talk […]

This will be the hardest piece I’ve ever written -- it is the piece I never wanted to write.  It is the piece I’m scared will destroy me.  But, it must be written as it is important and in some ways, eating me alive.  I am not a therapist.  I have no statistical studies for […]