June Converse

Thriving After Trauma - Author and Writing Coach

I have just finished book two of three in my Hope Series. Editing done. Formatting done. Cover done. I should be dancing down the street. Right?

My neighborhood book club suggested we read my book next month. My answer:  HELL NO.

Not MY Book Club

Why would I say no to a group of ladies willing to buy my book? I want people to read – and hopefully enjoy – Journey to Hope. I want people to enjoy it so much they read the first book Decide to Hope and recommend both to everyone!

Heck, I even want OTHER book clubs to read my book. I’ve created a list of questions to make it easier on book clubs. But MY Book Club? HELL NO.

To make this easier to understand, let me put you in a scenario and see how you feel …

You are sitting with ten or fifteen friends, enjoying wine and cheese, pretending not to gossip but nattering about who did what and to whom.

Now, imagine the friend to your left says, “Put your kid in the center of the circle and we’ll tell you everything that’s right about your child. But, of course, we’ll spend more time pointing out everything that’s wrong.”

Would you say, “Sure, that sounds like fun?”

My Baby

A book is like a child. In some ways, a book is more intimate. My children are shaped by me but also by the world. My children have unique personalities that I had nothing to do with creating. What is “right” or “wrong” with them is a combination of influences.

My book however is 100% me. Whatever is ‘wrong’ is my ‘fault’. Putting a book into the world is, by far, one of the most vulnerable things I have ever done. EVER.


Yes, I want reviews – need reviews. I want to know what people like and didn’t like. I want people to tell me if my book made an emotional impact. And, yet, reading those reviews is hard, hard, hard. With my first book, I never read one review. Shameful but true.

But I don’t want – cannot imagine – could not survive – sitting in a group while people attack ME. I am not my characters Kathleen or Matt. But they are ME. Does that make sense?

I know what you’re thinking – “your book club wouldn’t attack your book”. They may not. But attacking a book is what book clubs do.

Here is what I ask at every book club:

  • Rate this book on a scale of one to five.
  • What did you like?
  • What did you hate?
  • At what point in the novel did you “feel” something?
  • At what point did you want to put the book down?
  • Did the characters become so real you could imagine them sitting next to you?
  • Would you recommend this book?
  • Would you read anything else by this author?

All of those questions are asked before we actually discuss the story. Each and every one of those questions is an opportunity to “attack” a book.

Back to Our Scenario

So, you have – bravely or stupidly – agreed to put your child in the center of the group. Here is what they will ask:

  • Rate this child on a scale of one to five.
  • What did you like about this child?
  • What did you hate this child?
  • What do you FEEL about this child?
  • At what point did you want to abandon this child?
  • Would you recommend this child?
  • Would you want to be around any of this person’s other children?


ALL good stories are written on the premise of schadenfreude. Schadenfreude is “delighting in the misery of others”.

Sitting in a group while my friends vivisect my book or my child or my husband is the very definition “delighting in the misery of others.” YIKES. HELL NO.

The Hardest Part of Being An Author

My characters, Kathleen and Matt, are about to enter the world and are subject to all the criticisms the world can sling at them. Each arrow hits ME in the solar plexus. Takes my breath away. Sends me into the “who do you think you are to write a book?” cave.

It’s worth it. Kathleen and Matt deserve to have their story told.

It’s worth it. I worked hard to portray a dramatic PTSD story – the fears and hopes for the sufferer and her family.

It’s worth it. But, damn, it’s HARD HARD HARD.

Do other authors feel this way? I don’t know. But I’d bet on it.

Journey to Hope

I hope you read it. I hope you love it. I hope you go to Amazon and Goodreads and anywhere else and sing my praises. I hope you demand your book club read it. Just don’t invite me.

I promise to grab my wine, enjoy my cheese and crackers, and read every single review!

If you have an author in your life, pat them on the back for their bravery. The only way someone would put a book on the market is because they dug deep and found courage.

The title of the book is Journey to Hope – that’s what every author goes through – a journey to tell someone else’s story and a hope that someone will like it.

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My second book, Journey to Hope, recently hit the market. I’ve had many people ask me, “Where did you get the idea?” and “Is any of it true?”


Book one, Decide to Hope, came to me in a strange way. I had just returned home from a nine-week stint in a rehab facility after having a nervous breakdown. I had lost my career, most of my friends and all of my faith. What I had was my physical body. So I started to take care of it.

I began by hiking up Stone Mountain in metro Atlanta twice a day. I always – always -- had music in my ears. On one of these hikes, a man started talking to me. He wasn’t flesh and bone, but he was REAL. He kept saying, ‘You need to tell my story. Her story.’

Seriously, I had just left a mental health facility. Can you imagine my fear when I heard voices?!

I swatted him away and kept walking.

He returned day after day with the same plea. Finally, on a Friday afternoon, I took a shower, grabbed a pen and paper, settled on my deck, and began to listen. By the time Dave was home for dinner, I’d written over 200 pages (handwritten). None of it was particularly good or even legible. But the spark had turned into a flame and off I went.

Four long years later, Decide to Hope was published and Matt got to tell his story.

Before I even wrote “The End” of Decide to Hope, I began to realize Kathleen’s story was woefully incomplete. I’d shoved her into a horrible situation, and I needed to – had to – help her find a way out. Journey to Hope is her story.


My daughter read both books and helped me with marketing. She called me one day and asked, “Is Missy real? Pia? Was that place like the one you went to?”

  • Missy is based on a real person. Of course, book Missy is slightly more diabolical than the real person.
  • With Pia, I only changed her name and her age. Her story is 100% real.
  • The Center is based loosely on the rehab center I lived in.
  • Lisa is a composite of the many therapist I’ve had along the way.
  • The nephew is not real. He is, sadly, ripped from the headlines.
  • I personally experienced the exquisite pain and healing from drama therapy. The book elevates the drama and makes it all happen too quickly. But, hey, it’s fiction.

Does Rehab Look Like This?

I had a critique partner say to me, “This is not what therapy looks like in places like this.”

I remember the day clearly. I swallowed back my sarcastic retort, put my pen down and said, “I didn’t know you’d been to rehab. Would you like to share your story?”

I know, I know, that was kinda of bitchy and wholly passive aggressive.

Fiction is just that – fiction. But other than speeding up Kathleen’s journey, I based every therapy session, every group session, every character, on what I saw and experienced. I am not a therapist. I do not run a mental health facility. I am a journeyman on the road to creating an authentic life.

Am I Kathleen?

No. I am not Kathleen. I am, however, a woman who has suffered through trauma and had to find a way through to the other side. Kathleen’s story dovetails mine in the following ways:

  • Crisis of faith
  • Abandonment of relationships
  • Loss of peace
  • Loss of purpose/career

But, dear reader, there are real Kathleen’s out there and I ask you not to critique their journey. We have no idea the depth of someone else’s pain or the unique difficulty treatment presents to each individual.

Matt stood beside Kathleen. Give that to someone else.

~Be Well and Journey On

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We all know good stories are good because they imitate life and allow us to live with a character who is larger than life. Nothing is better than hearing a character say what you wish you could say. Nothing is better than solving a crime with a conniving bastard of a detective. Nothing is better than getting into bed with (you fill in the blank – for me it’s Tatum Jackson from Sweet Dreams by Kristen Ashley.)

Recently I finished my second book, Journey to Hope. As I was working with my media specialist (Emily), she asked me to write a blog about being an author and having a new release. At the same time, I was talking with a podcaster and considering being on his show to discuss my bi-polar struggles. As both of those swirled and whirled, I realized the process of writing a book is almost identical to my journey of discovery and ongoing life management.

Some Basic Elements to All Stories

Before I delve into how writing a book parallels life’s journey, I’d like to explain some of the elements of all stories.

A Book (or movie or TV drama) Begins with A Combination of Plot and Story

When an author sits down to write a book, they either have a character whose story they want to tell or a plot they want to unfold. No matter the method, all stories must have characters. The characters can be dogs and cats or cyborgs and robots. No matter the physical body, the character will experience a “human” existence. The reader – the human reader – can only identify with human experiences.

In most stories, there is more than one character on the stage. There is the protagonist – the main character. The antagonist – the person or force acting against the main character. Then there are mentors and allies and enemies.

The protagonist’s story will be told in scenes or chapters.

Characters Bring Emotional Baggage to the Story

Along the way, we pick up messages and beliefs about the world, relationships, and ourselves. Often these messages are false – what I call the character LIE. For example, in Journey To Hope, Kathleen believes she is not worthy of an abundant life of love; Matt believes his worthiness comes from his career.

The Story Forces the Character Lie Into the Spotlight

Most thoughts and actions are influenced by the lie. For example, if Matt believes his worth is based on business, he will choose business over relationship and he will react strongly (i.e., overreact) to career setbacks. Kathleen, believing she is unworthy of love, will reject anyone trying to love her.

The Character Gets to Choose to Accept or Reject the Lie

In positive character arcs, the protagonist confronts the lie and rejects it. In a negative character arc, the lie is confronted and embraced. In flat arcs – well, those are boring.

The Plot

The plot are all of the external situations the author puts the character in to force him or her to uncover the lie and decide how to respond. These are the scenes we read or watch. Discovering the lie is painful. Rejecting the lie is hard and there will be many, many obstacles. A good story will fill the plot with conflict and ever-increasing stakes.

Speaking of Stakes

Stakes are what keep us turning the page. If a character’s life is at stake, we want to know the outcome. If a relationship is on the cusp, we want to know the outcome. Think of stakes as “death experiences” – physical death, death of security, death of career or relationship or self-esteem.

There will be achievements and failures. Proud moments. Shameful moments. Friends will become enemies. Enemies will become friends.

Something is Learned

Every good story has the character learn something – about the world, about others, about self. By the time we close the book, we expect (and hope) the character has learned the lesson well enough for permanent change.

Of course, this is a very simplified explanation of story but hopefully it’s enough to make my point.

Writing YOUR Book

You may never sit down and pen a fictional story. But you live a real one every day. And like an author, you have a lot of power. While an author can make all the decisions, you can’t – you were born when you were born to the parents you were born to – but you CAN MAKE A LOT OF DECISIONS. You can be your own author beginning today.

Decision #1: The Lie

We all want to have a ‘positive’ arc - one where we are honest about our challenges and do the work to overcome and live in authentic abundance. The first step is identifying your lies (and the ghost). This is the most painful. I’ve attached a list of possible lies. Take a minute to look at them – highlight those that “hit” you. You’ll know you’ve discovered your lies when you get a little nauseous. (By the way, you will have more than one – that’s life).

The Ghost

Authors always know the lie. But the ghost is a little more elusive and not totally necessary for the author to know. However, the best stories are those when the author knows everything about the character – even, especially, those traits that are never used in the book.

The Ghost is the origin of the lie. For example, if you believe you will never be as good as your older brother, you can likely remember all the ways that was reinforced. Those reinforcements are the ghost(s).

Decision #2: Fighting the Lie

An author constructs a story where the character is placed in conflict over and over again until the lie is recognized and rejected. Each of these conflicts forces the character to react (internally or externally). An author gets to decide those reactions. SO DO YOU. Just as I am in charge of what my characters think, feel, do, I am in charge of what I think, feel, do.

A character will sometimes react in ways that elicits growth and sometimes react in ways that move the character further away from positive change. SO DO YOU.

When a character reacts “badly”, the author picks him or her up, dusts him off and moves him forward - - hopefully with a lesson on how not to react next time. Or, an author can let the character lie in the mud. SO CAN YOU. You can lie in the “woe is me” mud or get up. And, seriously, it’s okay to lay there for a bit. We all do it. What’s not okay is getting up and not learning something. If you don’t learn, the mud will be deeper and muddier.

The author also gets to decide the unfolding scenes. And while we can’t always decide not to do something, we can make SOME CHOICES. I can’t decide not to pay my bills. I CAN DECIDE how to manage my money so that bill paying is not torture. I can’t stop the gossip in the neighborhood. I CAN DECIDE not to participate. I can’t make myself taller or change the color of my eyes. I CAN DECIDE to be okay with whatever my body is and does.

There is always a force (sometimes more than one) who doesn’t want us to face the lie. For example, if you believe you are worthless, there will be plenty of people agreeing with you and proving it to you. Those are the story antagonists. A character – you – need to identify these antagonists and decide how to deal. You may be stuck with them in your life (i.e., the mother-in-law). If so, DECIDE the healthiest way for you to navigate. Or you may be able to annex the antagonist all together. You don’t have to be friends with the person who always puts you down.

Sometimes you are your own antagonist. That’s the hardest. But again, recognize that about yourself and call yourself out. The more you do stop the internal antagonist, the less power it will have.

Either way, identifying the antagonist is 90% of managing life.

The good news is that your life, like the characters, is also populated with allies. Identify them, thank them, use them, be an ally in return.

Decision #2: Rejecting the Lie

The lie you believe is bone deep. The world will work hard to make you embrace the lie. Just as an author makes the characters life worse, you will have some true struggles (unless you live in a cave). You can maneuver through these obstacles successfully IF YOU KNOW THE LIE. Once you know your lie, you’ll be able to identify when you are operating WITHIN the lie or AGAINST the lie.

Decision #3: Handling Setbacks

A good story requires the character to move one step forward, one step back. SO WILL YOU. You can know your lie, see how the lie controls you, recognize the enemies and still make a decision that sends you deeper into the lie. That’s the human condition. But once again, if you know the lie, you recognize the setback and move to the next scene wiser.

Decision #4: Never Stopping

In a story, the character overcomes the lie and never makes ‘those’ mistakes again. The boy gets the girl and lives happily ever after. The detective gets the bad guy and confidence grows (until the sequel). The sex is good and remains good no matter what! Well, that’s not how it works in the real world. Still, you are IN CONTROL of your reaction. YOU ARE THE AUTHOR OF YOUR STORY.


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In April 2012 I had a mental breakdown. The real thing. I have about 36 hours that I don’t remember....


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