No aspect of me is actually an enemy. I need every single element of my personality. BUT, let’s be honest, sometimes parts of who we are feel like the enemy, wound like the enemy. Even though all parts of me are actually trying to help me thrive and survive, some aspects are more misguided than others. As I watched Game of Thrones this afternoon (yes, I’m at GOT junkie) Tyrion said the following:
“You need to take your enemies side if you’re going to see things they way they do. And you need to see their side if you’re going to anticipate their actions, respond effectively and beat them.”
He left out one extra piece – we have to identify the enemy. So, let’ start there.
Let’s state unequivocally that feelings are NEVER the enemy. I say that because my first impulse was to say that “fear” is an enemy. Fear is NOT an enemy. Fear is information. I had to dig deeper … here is what I came up with:
Yes, these are all “voices” but the subtle distinctions are important. Each voice speaks differently, uses a different tactic, has varied volume and strength. While I’m sure there are many more, these four were very obvious, loud and often insidious. I actually think I battled each one sometime in the last 24 hours. Let me show you how:
You have a different list, I’m sure. But I think you get the idea. Our personalized enemy is that part of us that seeks to hold us back or drag us down or force us silent.
Just doing this small bit of writing has helped me identify the enemies’ actions. But I must be more vigilant. I must pay better attention and I must be attuned to all of their strategies. A good commander has sneaky methods of attack. Sometimes the attack is direct, sometimes it’s sneaky. The only way to anticipate the actions is to pay close attention. One thing I have begun to see more clearly is that when one enemy fails, another rises to the same challenge.
For example, I was able to beat the sugar monster by having a cup of coffee sans sugar. But now the teenage rebellious dragon is rattling in her cage, demanding I drive to the ice cream store. I won’t be able to do that, so my guess is the Inner Critic enemy will rear its ugly head and tell me how weak I am. Well, you get the picture.
All I can do is be intentional in my watch for the attack. Just seeing the attack will help defend my authentic self.
That’s what this entire blog is about – developing strategies to respond effectively. Every blog is an attempt to anticipate and find ways that work for me. One skirmish at a time.
Here are a few responses I’m using today:
One: I’ve been doing this great 5-5-5 breathing thing – breathe in for five seconds, hold it for five seconds, breathe out for five seconds. It’s been amazingly effective in calming me down.
Two: I’ve also posted several notes to remind myself of my goals, my strengths. Every day I found a new one … this is today’s:
“You’ll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret to your success is found in your daily routine.”John C. Maxwell
My day is coming to a close. Tomorrow, I’m going to have the following routine:
Three: My morning pages is also a strategy – it’s a place to put in writing my battle plans. It’s a place for me to whine and then close the book. It’s also a place for me to evaluate what’s working and what isn’t. It’s a place I can be perfectly, wonderfully authentic!
Those are all SMALL acts – but they are doable and they are footsteps on the path of success.
Four: I’ve already laid out the ingredients for healthy eating tomorrow. It’s kind of like going into to battle with all my supplies ready and within easy reach. The less decisions I have, the less I have to listen to any voices. Oh, I’m no fool, I know the enemy is strong and will have many tactics to throw my way – but, I’ve done what I could for now. And, that’s all I can ask of myself.
As I get stronger, as I recognize their voices, as I identify their battle plans, I can develop my own battle plans, my own strategies. I can win the next battle. That’s all I can do for now.
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